Ever have someone say to you: “STOP! acting like a victim!”
Now, I’m not precisely sure how a victim ‘acts’. However, here’s my litany of ‘life experiences’:
Molested between ages 4-7.
Witnessed an abundant of physical abuse toward my two half-brothers.
Witnessed my sister’s molestation.
Parents divorced at age 10.
Raped at age 15 while still a virgin.
Raped again three months later by the molester when 4-7.
Twenty-four years in a very abusive marriage…being thrown, kicked, punched, had a knife put to my throat, spat upon, etc.
Endured 4 pregnancy losses.
My son and companion died at age 20.
My youngest talks to me only when in need.
My next in line ‘plays games’ and is close to the ex that abused me and attempted to kill me.
My eldest has been ill for 8 yrs.
I have low oxygen that causes me to cease breathing at night so have been on oxygen for 2 yrs.+.
I have a crippled spine that causes leg spasms that twist me into a pretzel screaming in pain.
Arthritis has set in making my hands and knees swell causing pain.
I’ve had skin cancer in the past.
So, if I do act like a ‘victim’, at times… Is it learned behaviour? Could it be that perhaps I sometimes ‘act’ like a victim because I have been victimized?
I’m not ‘acting’.
But in spite of it all, I KNOW in Whom I have believed!!!
2 Timothy 1: (NIV)
12 That is why I am suffering as I am. Yet this is no cause for shame, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him until that day.
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