It can vary to different degrees at different times and in different individuals.
I have had this occur a couple of times in the past, but never to the degree I experienced over this past week. Thankfully, a doctor squeezed me into her already overbooked schedule to address this matter and I didn’t have to wait two months. I don’t know if I could have survived it, quite frankly. Although the word: Vertigo is described as ‘dizziness’, that doesn’t even come close to what it actually is. Most think of being dizzy as being lightheaded, a bit off balance, etc. There is no comparison between Vertigo and dizziness in actuality.
As I laid on the laid back chair and two strong women physically restrained me while turning my head from one direction to another, I was screaming so loudly with tears flowing that those in the outer office could hear me. Although it only lasts for approximately one minute, there is no concept of time in the midst of it. It feels as if someone has ripped out your brain and threw it into a blender. It doesn’t matter if your eyes are open or closed, the sensation is the same. If the enemy could harvest such a thing, it would be near top of their torture list. It’s not that it’s painful, it actually is not. But the incredibly rapid speed in which everything around you and inside of your head is spinning is indescribable. At one point, I recall softly pleading to the gals: ‘P-l-e-a-s-e don’t let go of me’. It felt as if I was about to spin in my entirety right out into space.
There are things in this life that simply can not be known until one experiences them. I know when someone says: ‘Oh…I know’ whether or not they really know. I know what it’s like to lose a beloved pet. It’s very sad and it hurts. We ‘pet lovers’ do mourn when they pass on. Such a loss, however, can not compare in any shape or form with the loss of a child, any more than comparing dizziness does with Vertigo at it’s ultimate.
This week, because we are approaching Easter, I have written a couple of articles about the intense suffering Jesus the Christ endured for our sake. Twice I have been called: ‘religious’ as a result, one even took offense. Comparing a ‘religious’ person and one who has a personal relationship with their Creator is like comparing the loss of a pet to the loss of a child, or dizziness with Vertigo. On the surface, there may appear some similarities, but they are not at all alike. As a matter of fact, Jesus repeatedly rebuked the ‘religious’ leaders of His day calling them: ‘Hypocrites’ and ‘Vipers’.
There is no better way to describe the differences between a person who has a relationship with Christ to that of a religious person than to use the words of Jesus:
Matthew 23 The Voice (VOICE)
1 Jesus spoke to His disciples and to the crowds that had gathered around.
(Jesus with the Pharisees listening uses them as an example of the pious but truly unrighteous. He calls the people to mind the Pharisees’ words, not their examples, because they talk about righteousness and faithfulness, but they are a faithless and unrighteous crew.)
Jesus: 2 The Pharisees and the scribes occupy the seat of Moses. 3 So you should do the things they tell you to do—but don’t do the things they do. 4 They heap heavy burdens upon their neighbors’ backs, and they prove unwilling to do anything to help shoulder the load. 5 They are interested, above all, in presentation: they wrap their heads and arms in the accoutrements of prayer, they cloak themselves with flowing tasseled prayer garments, 6 they covet the seats of honor at fine banquets and in the synagogue, 7 and they love it when people recognize them in the marketplace, call them “Teacher,” and beam at them.
8 But you: do not let anyone call you “Rabbi,” that is, “Teacher.” For you are all brothers, and you have only one teacher, the Anointed One. 9 Indeed, do not call anyone on earth “Father,” for you have only one father, and He is in heaven. 10 Neither let anyone call you “leader,” for you have one leader—the Anointed One. 11 If you are recognized at all, let it be for your service. Delight in the one who calls you servant. 12 For whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted.
13 Woe to you, you teachers of the law and Pharisees. There is such a gulf between what you say and what you do. You will stand before a crowd and lock the door of the kingdom of heaven right in front of everyone; you won’t enter the Kingdom yourselves, and you prevent others from doing so.
[14 Woe to you, you teachers of the law and Pharisees. What you say is not what you do. You steal the homes from under the widows while you pretend to pray for them. You will suffer great condemnation for this.]
15 Woe to you Pharisees, woe to you who teach the law, hypocrites! You traverse hills and mountains and seas to make one convert, and then when he does convert, you make him much more a son of hell than you are.
16 Woe to you who are blind but deign to lead others. You say, “Swearing by the temple means nothing, but he who swears by the gold in the temple is bound by his oath.” 17 Are you fools? You must be blind! For which is greater: the gold or the temple that makes the gold sacred? 18 You also say, “Swearing by the altar means nothing, but he who swears by the sacrifice on the altar is bound by his oath.” 19 You must be blind! Which is greater: the sacrifice or the altar that makes it sacred? 20 So anyone who swears by the altar swears by it and by the sacrifices and gifts laid upon it. 21 And anyone who swears by the temple swears by it and by the God who sanctifies it. 22 And when you swear by heaven, you are swearing by God’s throne and by Him who sits upon it.
23 So woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees. You hypocrites! You tithe from your luxuries and your spices, giving away a tenth of your mint, your dill, and your cumin. But you have ignored the essentials of the law: justice, mercy, faithfulness. It is practice of the latter that makes sense of the former. 24 You hypocritical, blind leaders. You spoon a fly from your soup and swallow a camel.
25 Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You remove fine layers of film and dust from the outside of a cup or bowl, but you leave the inside full of greed and covetousness and self-indulgence. 26 You blind Pharisee—can’t you see that if you clean the inside of the cup, the outside will be clean too?
27 Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like a grave that has been whitewashed. You look beautiful on the outside, but on the inside you are full of moldering bones and decaying rot. 28 You appear, at first blush, to be righteous, selfless, and pure; but on the inside you are polluted, sunk in hypocrisy and confusion and lawlessness.
29 Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You build monuments to your dead, you mouth pieties over the bodies of prophets, you decorate the graves of your righteous ancestors. 30 And you say, “If we had lived when our forefathers lived, we would have known better—we would not have joined them when they rose up against the prophets.” 31 Even when you are preening, you make plain that you descended from those who murdered our prophets. 32 So why don’t you finish what your forefathers started? 33 You are children of vipers, you belly-dragging snakes. You won’t escape the judgment of hell.
34 That is why I am sending you prophets and wise men, teachers of breadth and depth and substance. You will kill some of them and crucify others. You will flog others in your synagogues. You will pursue them from town to town. 35 And on your heads, stained through your hands and drenching your clothes, my friends, will be all the righteous blood ever shed on this earth, from the blood of innocent Abel to the blood of Zechariah son of Berechiah whom you murdered in the house of the Lord between the sanctuary and the altar. 36 I tell you: this generation will bear the blood of all that has gone before.
37 O Jerusalem, Jerusalem. You kill the prophets whom God gives you; you stone those God sends you. I have longed to gather your children the way a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you refuse to be gathered. 38 Surely you can see that God has already removed His blessing from the house of Israel. 39 I tell you this: you will not see Me again until you say, with the psalmist, “Anyone who comes in the name of the Eternal One will be blessed.”
James defines ‘True Religion’ in the Word of God as such: Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world. (James 1:27).
I have often found that the worst thing that will keep a person from coming to Christ has been a ‘religious’ person. They know all the jargon and can often quote Scripture with ease. However, their self-righteousness cannot be compared with the Righteousness found in Christ Jesus. It’s very sad to me that the outward appearance often deceives many, keeping folks from finding the real thing. The Corinthians were reprimanded by Paul for accepting a ‘different Jesus’: For if one comes and preaches another Jesus whom we have not preached, or you receive a different spirit which you have not received, or a different gospel which you have not accepted, you bear this beautifully. (2 Cor. 11:4). Paul made his opinion of such well known when speaking to the Galatians: But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let them be under God’s curse! (Gal. 1:8).
“ I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you by the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel–  which is really no gospel at all. Evidently some people are throwing you into confusion and are trying to pervert the gospel of Christ.  But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let him be eternally condemned!  As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let him be eternally condemned!”
It is my prayer that folks will seek the One and Only Jesus. Every counterfeit only leads to deconstruction one way or another.
As for those who take offense at my sharing of God’s Word, I can only say this: ‘I am a minister of the Gospel. So, I will share God’s Word because I do know the Hope I have found in God. I don’t want to hoard it and withhold something I know can help others. If folks don’t want that help, that’s their choice. If I see a person drowning and I have a lifebuoy handy, it would be wrong of me to not throw it out there. Whether they grab on to it is up to them.‘
(((HUGS))) Jude Gibbs, Author of ‘Gifts from the Ashes’ available at: Xulon Press, Amazon, Barnes & Noble and DeeperShopping. Also, a Contributor on ‘The Mighty’: https://themighty.com/2017/03/the-pain-of-holidays-after-the-loss-of-loved-ones/
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